Keep Myself Busy

 

26 January 2008

 

 

 

 

Keep myself busy

but doesn’t help much.

You always here

inside me.

My mind

My heart.

 

I saw you.

The you, buried so deep

by so much.

Saw you.

Felt you.

Touched you.

Can not forget.

Don’t want to forget.

 

Blue.

Sad.

But can’t show you.

Mustn’t.

 

You can’t feel the way I do.

You been too long another way.

I understand.

But understanding does not help.

 

What was I doing?

Why did you go, come, along?

 

I reach out.

Touch your face.

See you smile.

Why do I torture myself?

 

You say you do not want to hurt me

and then

you do

again

and again.

 

Wish I could be

half-way

with you.

Just a friend

but I can’t.

 

Must forget

your name,

your smile.

The you I saw

 

Must keep myself busy.